I found myself walking into the emergency room yesterday. I was shot up with steroids,antibiotics,breathing treatments, oxygen,iv fluids, and steroids and cough pills to go home with after they decided i wasn’t going to become a long term guest.
This had been coming on for weeks. I started coughing…then flu….then fever…then done. The cough won’t stop. It increased,and increased,and increased until I fell out of my chair at the er because of lack of breathing. Theres an entrance for you.
Why? I have an inherited lung problem called…alpha one anti tripson defecency syndrome. There are multiple strains:
1. It becomes active at 20 , you die by 22. Cure-lung transplant.
2.It becomes active at 30,you die of multiple lung complications and slowly wither ti death at 40. Cure-weekly iv,lots if meds….get to live till 50s. My mom and most of the aunts and uncles got this-theyre all dead now.
3. It becomes active in 30. if youre healthy you notice very little. Then you over exert your lung 1 time and suddenly the breath isnt as easy. Then your next cold turns into bronchitis then a lung infection. No turning back down..your lungs will dictate what you do. You keep healthy,excersise,and dont overexert the lungs or you get an odd cough for days. Cold plus overexersion…the cough lasts for weeks,but you feel ok till the breathing and the cough wear your body downn. **Thats where i am now.
4.COPD in later life unless unhealthy lung habits…emphysema in later life.
5. Liver…lots of liver problems leading to cirossis in later life. Dead by 60.
Ive written about the disease in this blog before.
So how does this have anything to do with the title and change?
Im glad you asked.
Ironicly,7 years ago I started this road with a small cold that left me bedridden and on oxygen and 75 doctor visits later. However, at the moment in my life i had finally left the selfish jobs,woke up, and became a teacher. As soon as this was solid and working,i was forced to lay down,concentrate on my breathe(meditation teachings…lol), and be thankful for all i really do have. To stop and focus on the fact that life is so precious and wonderful. To smile and sit with this awesome path for a moment,reflect,smile at a dream realized.
Now..after motivating for positive change is up and running. Ive been speaking,teaching,and actually seeing real change in response. Ive watched amazing people come into my life. People like you…the person reading this..im thankful for you! Ive become and been able to do amazing things.
When a person sits back on breezy summer sunday afternoons with trees rustling and lawn mowers in thd distance..they think of who they really want to be. That person i dreamed of is the person i am now. Wow…to think that the person im dreamkng of in this bed could be me in 7 years…thats pretty exciting.
But then i thought…wow how wondefful life is. I could sit and dwell of my fatigue,my cough(15 since i started this post), or my lack of gettting things fonr…but why.
I suggest we change our perspective and ideas. When “bad” things happen…percieved bad….lets stop and focus on how we can see this as positive. Theres a game i play with my kids when bad or horrid things happen (ie boston bombing) : We brainstorm all the ways to see this thing or experience as positive. Suddenly, when bad things happen to them in their life..they start braonstorming..sometimes alone but a lot of times together. Many if the “bad” things have truly enriched our lives, and if we can see the positves we csn see solutions to make things better.
Side note- my high functioning autistic son who see the negative in everything, and the world is against him…he doesn’t often say much at our positivity brainstorming game. However,as kids like him do, he gets bullied a lot. When he comes home and tells me when these incidents happen…he now adds all the ways hes looking at it in a positive way. In fact he decided to ask a bully why he did thise thjngs and it turned out the bully was on the spectrum(autistic spectrum) too. The bullying has decreased signifigantly.
A positive perspective changes everything!